G' day, and welcome to my Sunday Blog entry. have to say, that this blog site doesnt get near as much traffic or comment as my old My Space site did...but, at least I am not being stalked and harassed by other people here. At least something right?
Well, my round trip ticket to America has to be used by Tuesday...so, I will hop a flight back to Germany, and use the time back in Europe to see my kiddies, check on my cars, and of course...try feverishly to re-connect with my Dagmara...
She wrote me an SMS about 2 days ago. It was in response to one that I sent to her by mistake...one that was meant for my buddy Danny. She evidently could sense the depair and sadness in my message and she answered...also one of her famous short SMS's...
"I am so sorry you are sad".
Well ladi DA! OF COURSE I am SAD! Damn!
Well...she is the first thing I think of when I wake up in the mornings, and the very last thing I think about before I doze off...which incidentally is getting harder and harder these days, and almost impossible without taking a Melatonin tablet before I get into bed.
Now the nervousness of my coming back...and she doesn't know. I will just go back, then try to do some things in and around Schweinfurt without letting her know that I am there...maybe even watch her from afar...see how she is doing. Then when the time is right, maybe I'll go by H&M, bring some roses...say hi, then? Dinner?
Hope springs eternal....
I love her so much...and I miss her even more. And, even though I am coming back home...I have to eventually return to Florida, because I closed out my Apartment in Germany! I will have no home to go to...so, if she doesn't take me in, or let me stay over (a VERY real possibility...) I will have to impose on friends...
This all makes me very nervous. All of it does....its burning bloody holes in my stomach...
But I saw a Movie today, in which the main character was describing how he eventually convinced the girl of his dreams to Marry him....he said...
"Persistence pays off".
So...I will just keep trying....I simply cannot lose this girl! She is all I have...and all I want.
All I am, is Dagmara.
Good night sweety....I will be there soon.
xxxxJim
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